Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Well...not the news I wanted to hear today. I had a feeling that it was in several of my lymph nodes, but it's more than that. It knocked me off my feet. Unfortunetly, it is in lymph nodes under both of my arms, lymph nodes in my chest and abdomen, my sternum, one rib and I have a pleural effusion. A pleural effusion is fluid in between the sack around my lung and my lung. Now you can see why it knocked me off my feet. This all started back in November when I started having discomfort in my sternum and called the doctors office right away. I knew that breast cancer usually goes to the bones next, so I didn't wait. We did a CT scan and it came up negative. Everything looked fine. So, since the end of November and now, this monster has taken over my body. It is extremely aggressive and fast growing. I will be going to Good Samaratin Hospital tomorrow to have a biopsy of my sternum and to have the fluid drained from my lungs. They will then test the fluid to see if there are any cancer cells in the fluid. As of right now, there is not any cancer in the lung itself or any other major organs. Surgery will have to wait, and I will most likely start chemo on Friday. Chemo will last 6 months and then we will talk about surgery at that point. Devestated doesn't even come close to expressing how I felt. My husband was with me and we just cried. All the negative thoughts flooded in immedietly. This is not fair. I want to see my kids grow up. I want to grow old with my husband. I had my pity party and then we got in the car to go get our kids. And it hit me. Enough, I have two precious children waiting for me at home and I will fight for them. My faith is what will get me through. My sister said she will fight this all the way with me. So, I will put on the full armor of God and I ask that those of you who want to fight with me, put it on too. There is power in numbers and we can fight this battle together and the Lord will lead us. Please lift us up in prayer tomorrow and in the days ahead. I will keep you posted.