My family is gone and I am left here alone until my flight this evening. Even though I will see them tomorrow, I cried as I watched them out the window drive away. It's too quiet here without them. I'll be so glad to all be home tomorrow and get back to our daily routine.
The plan for now is that I will come out here once a month for chemo. I am going to get an IV of minerals and amino acids that I have been getting out here at home. There is a doctor in Ft. Lauderdale that will give it to me. Dr. Kotsanis wants me to get it three times a week. I'm hoping to find an alternative doctor closer to home. This IV is used for cancer and some patients have used it alone for their cancer treatment and have done really well. I will also start on a treatment from the UK when I get home. It is a plant based serum that I will take by mouth along with a very strict diet of only certain foods that I can eat. The man has won a nobel peace prize for his work in curing stage 4 cancer patients that have been told to go home and die. So, between these three things, hopefully I will get results.
I forgot to tell you that the other night Maddie was laying in bed with me and she sat up and held my hand and said, "Mom, I have to tell you something and I'm not sure how to tell you". She went on to tell me that she googled how to cure cancer and that she found out you can't. She didn't know if I knew that and she felt like I needed to know. She was trying to be the strong one delivering me this bad news. I was stunned! I told her that I knew that, but asked her who was my physician? She said, Jesus, and I said yes. I am trusting that the Lord is going to heal me even though they say you can't cure cancer. She never ceases to amaze me!
My parents are still in Virginia and my sisters are on their way home from Virginia today. So, Shelby and Darlene will pick me up from the airport tonight and stay with me so I'm not alone. Ian will be home tomorrow with the kids. Please pray for safe driving and flying for me. Pray that we will all be home together safely as a family tomorrow.