Monday, March 1, 2010
I went to another oncologist today for a second opinion. There was good and bad. Bad is that she puts me back to stage 4. Although, she doesn't have all my paperwork yet. She was waiting on the PET scan and Bone scan from the radiologist. So, maybe when she sees that, she will change her mind. Once she gets that info, and if she agrees with my oncologist, then she chose the same chemotherapy treatment. That was the good. It just confirmed to me that I would be getting the correct treatment. She is leaving for Harvard tomorrow and is going to take my case to be reviewed. Again, she has said that I am a very difficult case. At least my case is being taken to all these cancer institutes for free. And I don't even have to go. I choose not to believe that I am stage 4 and told myself while I was sitting there that I would not let my emotions control me. She did'nt have all her information, so I'm not going to waste tears. She did say that if it is stage 4, that I would be on a "marathon" so to speak of chemo. Basically I would constantly be taking some type of chemo to prolong my life. She said that we would stretch it out and try to get 15 years. I didn't like a number to be given to my life. When I talked to Robyn today,, she said, see Kelly, this disease is not going to take you because I believe the Lord will come back before then. I agree! I told Ian last night that wouldn't it be awesome if the day I started chemo the Lord came back! Woo Hoo! She did say however that this chemo regimen would be difficult and asked me if I had lots of help. So, I would ask for prayers for strength and perserverance through this battle. I had a hard time last time and this chemo is stronger. I will get a concentrated dose every other week. I don't have any other appointments before we leave on Wednesday for Texas. I will let you know how that went as soon as we get home. We will be back on Saturday. Love you all!