Psalm 118:17

I will not die, but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done.

Monday, March 1, 2010

I went to another oncologist today for a second opinion. There was good and bad. Bad is that she puts me back to stage 4. Although, she doesn't have all my paperwork yet. She was waiting on the PET scan and Bone scan from the radiologist. So, maybe when she sees that, she will change her mind. Once she gets that info, and if she agrees with my oncologist, then she chose the same chemotherapy treatment. That was the good. It just confirmed to me that I would be getting the correct treatment. She is leaving for Harvard tomorrow and is going to take my case to be reviewed. Again, she has said that I am a very difficult case. At least my case is being taken to all these cancer institutes for free. And I don't even have to go. I choose not to believe that I am stage 4 and told myself while I was sitting there that I would not let my emotions control me. She did'nt have all her information, so I'm not going to waste tears. She did say that if it is stage 4, that I would be on a "marathon" so to speak of chemo. Basically I would constantly be taking some type of chemo to prolong my life. She said that we would stretch it out and try to get 15 years. I didn't like a number to be given to my life. When I talked to Robyn today,, she said, see Kelly, this disease is not going to take you because I believe the Lord will come back before then. I agree! I told Ian last night that wouldn't it be awesome if the day I started chemo the Lord came back! Woo Hoo! She did say however that this chemo regimen would be difficult and asked me if I had lots of help. So, I would ask for prayers for strength and perserverance through this battle. I had a hard time last time and this chemo is stronger. I will get a concentrated dose every other week. I don't have any other appointments before we leave on Wednesday for Texas. I will let you know how that went as soon as we get home. We will be back on Saturday. Love you all!


  1. "Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings." (Psalm 61:1-4)

    Kelly, none of us are promised tomorrow but we can dwell in the shelter of His wings TODAY. I reject the labels that are being put upon you. You are not a "stage" and you do not have an expiration date on your forehead. You are the daughter of the most high Creator, the Alpha and Omega, the Prince of Peace, the Almighty God. He is the One who will call each of us home when it is time...not a day too soon, or a day too late. So until that time...let's remind each other to make every day count, because each of us only has today.

    I am praying that you will hear words of hope and health when you go to Dallas. I love you passionately.

  2. I couldn't have said it any better than Mayda! I do not believe in assigning numbers. Everyone is different and very few people are fortunate to have such a huge flock of family and friends praying for them!! My special prayers are for Danny & Jenn today as they travel back home and for the journey they will take with you. You are so blessed to have such a loving group of caretakers. I love you so much!! Praying for great things in Dallas!!

  3. Our Kelly, Kelly, Kelly, you have the prayers and loving arms surrounding you from all of us in Amb/GI Surg. dept. You live in our hearts so we will be with you every step of the way. Love you bunches!!!! The whole crew in Amb. /GI dept.

  4. We love you so much, Kel. Praying for you constantly. Praying for the strength and peace that relying on the Lord can bring! Love Shelley

  5. Kelly, you are not just a diagnosis. You are wonderfully and beautifully made by the One who loves you more than anyone walking this Earth.

    There is mighty strength in numbers and I pray and believe the Lord will carry you through this in a way that only He can.

    You have our prayers, Kelly.

    Love, Kelly

  6. Kelly, Nick and I are so happy for you that you have found a treatment plan that you feel confident in, even though it sounds exhausting doing all that traveling. But if you believe and feel that this is the right way, then God will be with you to help you and your family through this. You have our good vibes and prayers for you. I know being away from your kids will be hard, but Jamie and Steve will be great with them.

    I've just shared your blog info with Margaret and Robert. They don't have computer access where they are at Three Rivers State Park, Sneads, FL. So I will pass on all the info. They wish to send you all their love and prayers as well.

    Love Ellie and Nick